Journey to Nia~ BE New~ BE You

This is truly a journal entry.  The stream of thoughts came together in complete clarity.  I knew it was time.  I did what comes naturally.  I immediately searched for the “right” journal to record the ideas that just entered my spirit.  I have many options so I went to find the one.  I stopped in my tracks.  Be New, Be You, BEaUtiFUL (Be You to the Fullest), Marni.  The blog will be your paper this time.  Share with the world where you are in your journey…

Here I am sorting through it all, this massive undertaking and all of a sudden it hit me.  I had to stop, I had to take a hiatus in order to BE me to the fullest.  Seven full fast years of school (while working a full time job and a part-time job), four children (2 of whom are adults), five years practicing law in every area that I envisioned, six years in purpose (3 books, a CD, four tours, hundreds of proteges, hundreds of ”no coincidence” spiritual interactions with God only knows how many people, a non-profit organization-Chester Teens, Inc., speaking and seeking truth as an avocate for youth in three great national movements-Communities In Schools, The Metropolitan Wilmington Urban League and the YMCA) and the list goes on…

…So I’m literally sorting through it all; hundreds of pages (trainings attended, notes taken–and many of ya’ll know I take copious notes–workshops facilitated, keynotes written, stacks and stacks of Williams Enterprise Productions business records publishing documents and records, tour information, pictures, notebooks, books and books and more books (law school and college books, books selected for self-taught courses on everything from religious studies to African American studies to painting and drawing and non-profit management and…), etc. etc. etc.

Wow!  It’s enough to make anyone’s head spin; I was supposed to embark upon this massive task of sorting after a full day in purpose, standing in the gap for youth, shining the light of hope in a generation of struggling youth, fighting a seemingly losing battle of getting the right people in the right places to the the right thing for the right reason, teaching my children, grocery shopping, cooking dinner, doing the laundry, cleaning, delagating other responsibilities as the manager of my home…(Wife, mother, employee, home manager, author, poet, artist…)

Stop!  Spiritual creature first.  Thank God for sending Joel to get my attention and to speak the truth. He was sent to tell me that I was running so fast I couldn’t hear the Voice of He who made me, understands me, loves me, cares for me, consoles me and thereby should guide me and direct my path.  My time was consumed with the agenda and expectations of others, many of whom didn’t share the same values that I aspire to and self propelled “thoughts” of what I should do and how I should do it.  I desperately needed a blank canvas, daily and moment by moment.

So on January 15th I was “free at last” (”thank God Almighty, I’m free at last”, by no coincidence on that day since I’m just realizing this significance as I write).  I am greatful for the fulness of meaning in life and for understanding the reason, the season, the plan and the purpose.   

So here I am having taken a leap of faith again, sorting through it all, hearing my Creator’s voice and sensing His call.  I’m listening for the little instructions like how to organize, prioritize, store and manage all of this data, these ideas and desires, this vision.  And that’s when it dawned on me.  But not for this hiatus, it would not be possible.  Hallelujah!  I thank Elohim for this time to BE free to hear exactly what to do at every given moment. That’s freedom and this journal entry is a testimony of this journey.  He stopped me in my tracks with loads of “stuff”  on my office floor, outside my office and in my basement that still needs to be sorted and organized in preparation for what I shall do.  

I pray that this will encourage and inspire many to stop, listen and heed the call to purpose.  For we were not designed for the rat race.  Your life has a purpose larger and greater than that. 

“Take Courage To BE that which you are called to BE”.~Marni~Mariposa  

And freedom writes:

“In the quiet place

His Spirit, His grace

Quiets my mind

Causes the canvas

Of my soul to erase

All strokes of self

All expectations others place

I await…

His Spirit shall replace

‘Far exceeding abundantly above all’

I could ever trace

And now flowing freely in his grace, in this place

He paints anew on my heart

And now eager to start

This New journey to embark”

Marni~Mariposa